I Think I Need Help!!!!

Hello there...

Well yes, I am aware it's been a while. I had been busy lately with drastic changes in professional life and stuble moves in personal. Yours truly is completely fine.  

I have been enjoying the birthday month and socializing like a social butterfly. I have hosted more guests in one and a half months than last 3 years. Unlike last year, the weekends are chaotic with energetic, creativity and mad gettogethers. Yet I always maintain to have a hint of solitute. 

I feel like I have barely cooked this year, and winter got over in a flash. I couldn't even show off my winter garments. But oh well, things are always fast with me. The year started with an emotional roller coaster ride and I am yet to get a complete hold of my feelings. I finally know what being confused mean and I kid you not, I hate it! 

I have mostly been clear about what I want and majorly what I don't want. It's strange how things are changing quicky, and I am getting little to no time to realize it. The universe wants me to act on things the moment it happens and it feels unfair to me. It's hard to live upto your expectation you have created in your head, it feels like betrayal if you don't match that image and then we become hard on ourself. 

Often I found myself telling others to be kind to themselves, but when it came to me I almost forgot it. I forgot to look at the brigther side of the picture. I have no lessons to share, no experiences to note down, I just came here to be, if that makes sense to you! 

Thank god the year didn't start with any major learning lessons. The year of 2026 is year of my return, and I can see it working. Between all the social gathering and upside down changes I find myself grounded and looking for something. Something stable that can hold me still and anchor me. A safe point where I can be myself and not anybody else, where I don't have to wear a mask and drop all the weapons to fight the world. 

Maybe that's enough for now. Just showing up. Just being. Maybe you will see me again, maybe you won't!

And you know what... this time I need the love, drop some in the comment section! 

The Queen of Random Things